Monday, September 17, 2012

One Month Marker

So, I've been off of Dom now for about 10 days and the decrease in production is noticeable. Whereas I was up to producing around 2 to 3 teaspoons per day only after 14 days on Domperidone (Motilium), I am now only producing around 1 teaspoon per day. It probably didn't help that I ran out of Fenugreek but I am awaiting my next round of Dom to be shipped to me (this time more than enough for just a two week's supply) and I will be purchasing Fenugreek very soon. I can't wait to get back on Dom and see what my production reaches after three or four weeks of use! Stay tuned!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Day 24 (September 11th)

Day 24 (September 11th, 2012):

2:00am - Well, surprisingly despite having not been on Dom for a few days, my breasts are still producing milk with no significant increase or decrease in amount. In fact, the first 10 compressions were sprays from my right breast (the stubborn one) and one spray from the left. I even produced a little bit more than normal, about 1 scant teaspoon. Amazing. The human body is amazing.

Fact: Did you know that breastfeeding lowers a female's risk of getting breast cancer? Now you do!

11:00pm - Well, shoot, I've noticed a slight decline in amount of production but that could be because we were just super busy for a few days and I didn't keep up with my expressing schedule. Stay tuned.

 

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

The Commitment Required for ANR

Okay, so I think it's already pretty evident, but having an ANR is a huge committment and a lot of folks don't take this into account when entering into one or starting the lactation process.

Yes, at first ANRs seem like a dream come true to newcomers and they are eager to begin one, but ANRs can be very demanding and challenging for people that aren't committed to the idea or who rush into one; people that aren't ready for that kind of commitment or who have that kind of patience usually wind up extremely disappointed.

The insights I am addressing now only came from personal experience, that's the only reason I know what I do. A lot of lactation seekers are in it for the erotic gratification (and yes, while there is plenty to be had) there's nothing wrong with that (everyone has a kink) if it's a one time experience they wish (and the other party is well aware of it) but being smart enough (like you, dear reader) to realize it's something they want to sustain, is another thing entirely.

ANR can be a pretty heavy topic because of it's emotional liability. For both partners involved the relationship becomes both more and less emotionally stable, more stable because it really does something amazing to the bond you share; the hormone oxytocin (aka the cuddle hormone) engenders immense feelings of loyalty and love for to the other person. It creates closer intimacy, more tenderness, and warm fuzzy feelings. Plus, from a woman's perspective, the femininity is overwhelming; knowing you could save a life with your breasts.

For me, part of breastfeeding another person is based in the desire to bring comfort. Being the altruist that I am, the idea of nurturing someone in a way that no one else in their life does, them depending on me for something only I can provide, and gaining sustenance and nourishment from me as nature intended the breast to function; those ideas are all very gratifying and I think it's why I love nursing so much. It's a way to calm anxiety, both mine and another person's, and the worries of everyday life seem to evaporate even if only for a short while. It's such an amazing and empowering thing to be able to provide that kind of comfort and solace for someone else.

It's also emotionally less stable because while ANR is a healthy co-dependence, it's still a co-dependence, and if the breasts are not emptied often enough they become painful and sore, and that can cause major resentment between partners, and hell hath no fury. If her partner keeps putting her off and only empties her breasts sporadically with no routine, and she's left to do all the work herself, it can feel a lot like she's carrying the entire weight of the ANR (doing all the work and only keeping up the supply for convenience) when every relationship should have equality.

Conversely, for the person being breastfed if their partner isn't feeling up to it, is sore, etc, then it can also cause resentment because nursing is a time period in which both partners experience a release of anxiety (the oxytocin in the blood stream i.e. the cuddle hormone) and warm fuzzy feelings. And if the lactating female's heart is just not passionate about it, is spotty on keeping up an expression schedule, and forgets often, it can make the nursing party feel neglected, ignored, not cared enough for. Really it's a whole mess for both parties.

People often ask me, "Is an ANR bad or good emotionally?" Based on everything I just addressed I'd say it's emotionally different, not necessarily "bad" or "good."

So, if you're seriously considering an ANR, please do consider these emotional issues as well. It's not a commitment to be taken lightly, and both partners have to be in it to win it. Some good resources for more information on ANR are:
I wish you the best of luck on your journey, what ever it may be.




Sunday, September 9, 2012

Day 23 (September 10th)

Day 23 (September 10th, 2012)

Holy Smokes! Sorry for the delay in posting - we just moved and so the internet isn't installed at the new place just yet, that'll happen on Tuesday - but I digress, everything is going splendidly!

Here's the new news:

Day 18 (September 5th)
(Ninth Day on Dom):
Good news everyone! Still on Dom and Fenugreek and when I hand express, the first two compressions are sprays! After that they resume to drops. I'd probably say my quantity is at around 1 teaspoon.
Looking forward to what's next!

Day 23 (September 10th)
(15th Day of Dom): Well, due to not ordering enough Dom, I've weaned off of it and I will just be continuing the Fenugreek for now, but good news everyone! The first several (5 to 6) compressions are beautiful sprays! I'm hand expressing about 8 times a day and out of each session I am getting approximately 1/4 teaspoon per session, so that puts my production up to 2 teaspoons per day, not including whatever the hubby consumes, but the increase has been steadily and rapidly increasing.

Shoot 14 days ago I could barely produce a drop or two, and today I've expressed more than a tablespoon! Wowie! Although this tapering off the Dom will be a good experiment to see just how drastically it affects production and if what they say about just massaging really is true.

Stay tuned!








Sunday, September 2, 2012

Another Why Behind ANR

I don't think I've explained myself correctly or given you the real, honest to God reason behind why I want to nurse. I believe it's only fair and very important to explain to you WHY I have the desire to nurse, what drives the motivation, and why I want to do it.

For me, part of breastfeeding another person is based in the desire to bring comfort. Being the altruist that I am, the idea of nurturing someone in a way that no one else in their life does, them depending on me for something only I can provide, and gaining sustenance and nourishment from me as nature intended the breast to function; those ideas are all very gratifying and I think it's why I love nursing so much. It's a way to calm anxiety, both mine and another person's, and the worries of everyday life seem to evaporate even if only for a short while. It's such an amazing and empowering thing to be able to provide that kind of comfort and solace for someone else.

As a reassurance, the part of me that wants to potentially have nursing clients has nothing to do with some sort of deficit in my LTANR relationship; what it does have to do with is the desire to bring happiness and comfort into someone's life. You see, there is no part of me that desires any sort of sexual gratification from these potential experiences. My LTANR partner is my sexual gratification.

Another part of my reasoning is that I don't want to become a burden on my partner, because the commitment and demand of an ANR is a great one. Last time we tried this, I became very sad because emotionally, it made our relationship both less and more stable. More stable because the bond and the connection we share strengthens, but it's also less stable because while an ANR is a healthy co-dependence, it's still a co-dependence. If the breasts are not emptied often enough they become painful and sore, and that can cause resentment between us, which is the last thing I want; and if I'm not feeling up to it, am sore, etc, then it can also cause resentment on his end because nursing is a time period in which we, as a couple, experience a release of anxiety (oxytocin i.e. the cuddle hormone).

I understand, respect, and appreciate that his main concern for me is for my safety. That being said, I had a revelation regarding this: since it's a concern, therein lies the potential for resolution and for calming irrational fears, I was wondering if there was anything I could do to alleviate his concern? For instance would it make him feel more at ease if he were to screen and meet potential clients? Would he feel better if he were present so that he could actively protect me? Would his fears alleviate if it were to take place in our own home? These are the sort of things I would like to ruminate on.

<3 Mir

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Day 17: Fourth Day on Dom

Day 17 (September 1st)
(Fourth day on Dom):
All is well, my friends, and I hope your holiday weekend is turning out to be a good one! Let's see, today's update is that my breasts are frikkin sore as heck! Yes, my nipples too, but not nearly as much as my breasts, h'ouch! But that's a very good sign because, "Significant breast changes include an increase in breast size (at least 1 cup) and breasts that feel full, heavy and painful." (http://www.canadianbreastfeedingfoundation.org/indu… Woo! So, I'm doing it right. Due to a hectic weekend of moving I have had little time to pump or express today, but nonetheless my girls are still with the program. The drop have turned from clear to a translucent white. The amount has turned to very substantial, nice, fat drops. That one spray must have been a fluke or else very good timing, still waiting for it to happen again.
<3 Mir


The First Two Weeks

 The First Two Weeks

Speaking as someone who has never been pregnant, I am inducing for the third time around, and I can say that the first go around is always the hardest and the one that requires the most patience.
The very first time, it probably took me about one or two months to bring in a decent supply of milk. The second time it took around 4 days before I was producing about 5 ounces a day.
The glands in your breast tissue must make a major change in order to start lactating and that's what requires the patience, but once that happens, expect to reap the benefits! I'll be updating here as I go about my third re-lactation process, so stay tuned!

This Journey Starts About 2 Weeks Ago, so to fill you in:
Day One (August 17th): Able to express about a drop or two from the left breast without any changes to diet, herbal supplements, and/or motilium/domperidone. Decided to order Dom to help speed things up.

Day Four (August 20th): Decided to up my water intake and keep everything else normal, still only a couple drops expressed from the left breast several times a day, the right breast however remains stubborn and will not produce more than a glistening half drop. Have not started taking Fenugreek or Milk Thistle.

Day Thirteen (August 28th): STILL waiting on the Dom to arrive in the mail. Currently producing about a teaspoon from the left breast, the right breast has yet to get the memo and is still being stubborn, producing only about a few drops a day. Have decided to pick up Fenugreek from the market first thing tomorrow.

Day Fourteen (August 29th): Finally the Domperidone has arrived! Oh happy day! I will be starting on 20mg taken 4 times a day. I also bought some Fenugreek and am taking 3 caplets three times a day. So far, only after taking two doses of the Dom and the Fenugreek, the right breast has hopped on board and produced a full drop! Hooray. I also increased my water intake so that I am drinking approximately 2 or 3 cups and hour.

Day 16 (August 31st)
(Third Day on Dom)
: Taking 20mg of Dom 4 times a day and 600mg of Fenugreek 3 times a day. I can already tell my breasts are gearing up to start flowing properly: they're heavy, swollen, and sore. I have been pumping about once every two hours, employing the Marmet technique, and having my LTANR partner suckle regularly. Changes in amount have not increased dramatically as of yet.

Update: Even though it's still the same day, I had to report! Holy nipples, Batman! Just got my first little spray from the left breast; one lone streamer. My right breast is still being a bit stubborn and so still only drops are expressed. This is the part I find the hardesto get through due to the issue of having my breasts very tender and heavy, it's pretty uncomfortable, but it should go away within a week or two. Hooray for spray!